Blinded

Today, a friend grabbed my hips, said "Ohmygod you're so skinny!"
I wriggled out of her grasp, mortified at the thought of her touching my thick, flabby body.
Am I skinny? When I look in the mirror, I don't see thin.
I see disappointment.
I see a whale of a girl peering back at me.

In other news, I still have no scale. I am going slowly insane not knowing my weight.

And some thinspo: